~ life is wonderful ~

Miss ayang very2 much

2010-04-04T04:15:00.002+08:00

4.15am
Dear my lovely ayang,
I really2 miss u tawu. Cant wait fr u to come back tomorrow. Today i woke up at 2pm and do my stuff all thn around 4 i meet taufiq and accompany him to queensway cause he wanna check out the price for printing logo at justbeat t-shirt. Dn arund 8 we meet abg asri at boon lay and he treat us karaoke. dun worry sayang all the juniour only follow us to the karaoke the senior is kak zain,farah and fifie. kter karaoke for 3 hours sampai suara i pn tkde. Hehhehe. after that we went to bugis by taxi for sheesha. Tpi yng tk ikot gy sheesha is fara and the juniour.dn kter alek dlm kul 3.30. abg asri kasi i 20 dollar to go hme. and that all wat i did for today. ayang i really cant wait for tomorrow caue i cant wait to hug u cause i miss u so much. that all for today. love u ayang. miss u so much, mmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

2 more days to go

2010-04-02T22:00:00.003+08:00

10.15pm
Dear my lovely Sayang,
Today i didnt do lots of things. i go sembahyang jumaat, after sembahyang jumaat i stay for a while to pray for your safety and pray that hopefully all going to be fine fr another 2 days of ur trekking trip at pahang. After that i went to teh tarik and meet my lrs friends to have sme drinks and ask about yesterday nye meeting. Dn i went back around 4.30. ater that i went to class ugama. Tday didnt learn lots of thing cause abes 9.30. Ayang I miss u alots tawu sayang. yesterday all the way i hug ur batal busuk when sleeping. hehe. That all for today. i love u sayang and miss u alots. mmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!

Gonna miss her

2010-04-02T00:02:00.004+08:00

12.02am
Dear my lovely sayang,
Im gonna miss u so much tawu. i will hug your bantal busuk tightly till i wont let it go hahaha. u wanna knw something, halfway back home from sending u to pahang i cry. means that i gonna miss u soooooo much. ayang i love u alots tawu. when u came back from pahang i hugg u till u cant breath. hehehe, that all for tday. i will update u for the next 3 days ok ayang. love u sooo much and gonna miss u. mmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

hold you in my arms :)

2010-03-21T20:41:00.002+08:00

baby.
Its only you in my heart. There's no one else can take me away from you unless ALLAH says so. When i felt like missing you, i listen to this song cause it makes me smile&always think about you whenever i go. If you feel like im not a good gf, just tell me. And is all in your hands to make the right decision for yourself. Read through the lyrics. Its really meaningful. I LOVE YOU!

When you came to me with your bad dreams and your fears
It was easy to see you'd been crying
Seems like everywhere you turn catastrophe it reigns
But who really profits from the dying
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever

When you kissed my lips with my mouth so full of questions
My worried mind that you quiet
Place your hands on my face
Close my eyes and say
That love is a poor man's food
Don't prophesize
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever
And I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever

So now we see how it is
This fist begets the spear
Weapons of war
Symptoms of madness
Don't let your eyes refuse to see
Don't let your ears refuse to hear
Or you ain't never going to shake this sense of sadness
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold on forever
And I could hold you in my arms
I could hold on forever

whats wrong with me?

2010-03-19T14:42:00.002+08:00

Diary, im so pissed off ryte now! Really damn pissed off. Wrote something just now about how i felt and think, ended up i click the other website&the previous was gone. FUCK!

so, back to where i stop. Maybe, i should restart back what ive said. I really dont noe why this mixing feelings is still stuck in my heart. Scared&sad! Is really carried away. I cant stop thinking negatively.. Didnt talk to hun cause i felt like scolding him or maybe nag at him. I dont noe. Maybe my mens is coming or maybe this feelings is going to be worse!

Besides this feelings,talking about how i get into this mixing feelings.. I just wonder. Why on earth there's alot of bitches hanging here& there waiting or maybe flirting with guys? Why on earth there is a bitch? Okay fine! i cant say this but why cant they be just themself rather following animals attitude whom didnt felt shame for themself. Im not referring to whoever but this is how i felt..
&why on earth they need to looked&be so bitchy towards other people mens?
Are they born to be like that or they become like that cause they want to?

Hun still didnt talk. Maybe he wants to but i've showed to him dat i felt really pissed off. Is he really love me? Do he really care?
forget it. im off to watch a soccer match. it rains. And i hope it wont be that heavily or maybe no rain& a bit of sunny..

love.

we need to love the earth!

2010-03-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

OLA!!

I LOVE YOU REZAL!!

Had been a great trip that i went with mama, isah, uncle&more of dikir barat friends.&i would not forget my lovely boyfriend :)
hahaha. Overall, ALLHAMDULILAH, it was a safe journey that we went. Nothing bad happen. Journey from the tanjong p ferry terminal to the market was not dat long. To hotel? naaa.aa! But the long hours journey was to ras inayah orphanage house. It was really deep inside. Like there's no taxi around. Its kinda like a dessert thing!
When i reached, there's alot of young kids running here&there.Its kinda sad thing for me. &the most saddess part was when the orphanage children sang their song&kneeling down with their hand cross together.. afterall,we need to love the earth as their place is way to different than singapore. Ive cried :(
okay, change story.

So, hunny was there all along with me.. i love you!
Mama was busy entertaining her friends.
Isah was in her own wonderland.

Shopping&having fun..
sleeping, resting with kakak balqis&HUNNY!!!

time to sleep..hunny wants to sleep together :))

bored!

2010-03-08T15:40:00.005+08:00

Sunny and Sunny again!
haha.sun taning everyday. :D
Currently listening to gwen stefani song(cool).
we just need to be cool everyday.

woke up late(AGAIN)
mummy went work&im alone at home sleeping like a sleeping BEAUTY!Can't even open my eyes. Hunny came&pull me to the bathroom.hahaha. Cause i smelled like a skunk. ewwww!!

went school with hun.reached at about 10 plus.hahha.late uh!
ended the class at about 11 plus.So, i could say dat i attended lesson for like 1 hour plus ONLY! Went cwp to eat my lunch with my dudettes. &off home to rest. Its really a damn bored day today.Maybe will be following hun to adm to see him play takraw.Maybe! Boredess day!urghh!!!

Will be updating soon.
TOODDLES!

world?

2010-03-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

heyy angels.

its been more than a week i didnt updated my blog.Cause of school event and starbucks work. And im having eye infection right now. Shit! haha.
So,school event was fun. Won the college west race.JYEAH! Top 10!
Currently under training at work. Manager&some staff were okay.Just fine.
Socer training were fine too.Been improving alot.. ALOT!

Today,school was fine. But the house were sucks. Alid was damn fcuking shit. I really dont noe what happen. Kesian mama.But i dont noe if mama knows how i feel. Just forget it. im just giving up.bit by bit.

Baby was fine too. Had some arguments with him. Its my fault. I know. Baby, i love you alright. :)
Had a chit chat wit him on the phone&msn. i really miss him alot.
need you&more.
i guess dats all for today. Waiting for hun to call!

gd nite.

today :)

2010-02-16T23:53:00.003+08:00

ola!
Woke up in the morning. Mummy asked me a favour to buy some groceries to cooked for today. Sister followed me&there we go to fair price.AT LAST! it opens for all the people in this world.heh.

It was still a sunny day. Like yesterday.I could say that i perspired alot. Will be smelly than the pig&dog! :D
After that,i went to watch the soccer match at tpy stadium whom affie asked for a favour too.But that was for awhile cause i knew hunny would thinked that i met him. But i DIDN'T! swear tau hunny..yeah, i didn't text you cause i knew you were busy with your stuff at nenek house. As before i left my house, i did text him&he replied me like want&don't want! i was mad but i did relax.Cause i knew im deeply in love with HUNNY!!

So, went to work!
Fun,tiring,new experience&insyaALLAH i hope everything will be fine for me in few days. :)

hunny,i love you more than everything!
romantic dinner will be coming up as i think its a new thing for us. 18 this year. What do you expect. So,please.Im not cheating you&i hope everything will be fine for us!
good night hunny!!
muahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

ROMANCE!

Good Morning+the noon :)

2010-02-15T10:49:00.003+08:00

Morning everyone.
im listening to Robbie William Song.
&eating chicken from popeye that i bought yesterday. Okay, this time the drink didnt drop cause i asked the person to give me&extra beg! am i clever or what? :)
&yesterday, hunny didnt text nor called me. I felt sad but i noe he felt damn tired. I do understand. But, i cant lied to myself that i've waited for him like almost more than one-two hours. Maybe, till i slept..
okay, i think i will continue writing my blog in the noon.
breakfast!!!

lovee..

Haii again..
i did have a great time today.
At first, fetch hunny from fair price&went to shop and safe to buy chicken&some groceries to cook for today. Chicken black pep.hmmm, SEDAP! Hunny ankle still felt painful. I really dont no when his ankle can be cure. my heart says that im feeling worried..but hunny,I wanna go sun taning!
hahhaa :)
after cooking&the dishwashing, had some rest with hunny :D
&he went back around 9pm. Sent him to the bus stop&dats all for the noon. haha.

good night.

VALENTINE?

2010-02-14T10:58:00.003+08:00

Valentine??
Everyone is busy with their romantic day and im at home taking care of my lil sister. Hunny went out picnic with his family. :) im happy for him.Unlike like me, mummy went to tanjong p with uncle. Bored like heaven!
i dont think today is the happy day for me..
Now im listening to lauryn hill song. I dont noe. I just feel like crying. But its okay. I'll be fine shortly.
Ouh, there's this story, Love is Cinta. Believed me, i cried when the story started to get more touching. I know, im so emotional. I dont noe! hahaha. But it was fun watching dat show. &At last, both of us stayed at home cause we dont have any idea where to go. :D

Hunny came over my house yesterday. Stayed with him all night long. Watch my super ex girlfriend and white chicks.Its romantic!!
hahaha. Yeah, he did take good care of me and lil sister when mummy is not around.
thank you.And guess what, yesterday was the most unlucky day for 3 of us. Wanna take bus to novena but ended up walking the wrong way. Wanna photocopy my ic, the shop closed cause its the first day of chinese new year. like duh!! hahhaa. Bought popeye to eat,ended up the drinks drop. hahaha. BAD DAY!!!
but at last, everything was back to normal. Now, im missing my hunny badly. Just for a day, i miss him badly..heh.
Maybe dats call LOVE!

Happy Valentine Day everyone!!!

stressing up :(

2010-02-12T00:23:00.004+08:00

Heyy everyone.
Im stressing up down here thinking what i should do next with this project. My dudes help me out a bit.Mummy help me out a bit. At last! hahahaha. She just help me to find a suitable food label for this project. Its okay. I will take it easy as Baby asked me too. :) Maybe its my fault too cause i didn't do the project earlier. But seriously, this project is the most hardest i've ever had! How about we dont talk about the stupid project. My brain is really stressing up ryte now. Feeling like drinking my fav starbuck drinks. Chocolate cream chip with whip cream! Yummy!

Baby sleep first as he needs to wake me up early in the morning. :)
All i could say, i love him ALOT! Maybe he didn't realised cause obviously, im still having this scared feelings with guys. But baby, don't worry. I will try not to think negative always. I just need more time to believe in guys although i said I LOVE YOU which came deeply from my heart.

Diary, im having this tiny matter that will always make baby felt angry and sad each time the thing happens. Its about effie. I can't swear as i guess its a sins but truly, i dont like and there's no such thing as love in my heart. Well, obviously his a good soccer player and his handsome but if his not my type, what for ryte? Ive just known him this year. And im just making him as my friend. Not more and not less. Enemy? We shudnt ryte. Im just trying my best to put baby as my 1st prior. So i hope, baby wouldn't have the grudges towards him or me. &baby, he didnt confessed anything at all sayang. Chill ayte.. :)

Rezal baby, i noe you kept on asking me why on earth i didnt inform him about us&lalalalaa daddaa! ryte? here, listen! i just dont want people to know. Maybe, they would know by themself. Thats even better sayang. Let it be a secret for both of us. You and me know's that we love each other like heaven. We just need to be strong enough to get through all of the 3rd party and any different kind of quarreling and fighting that we had. Like i said to you before. The indonesia movie that we watched before. (Ayat-ayat cinta)!
just remember what aishah told fahri. The phrases is soo touching till i cried too. Sayang, jodoh ditentukan oleh ALLAH! we cnt predict anything. ALLAH knows the most. We just need to pray hard. :)

i think thats all. I got to go. Good night.
Assalamualaikum.

world..

2010-01-27T00:38:00.004+08:00

Heyy everyone.
As usual.Woke up early morning to go to school.Walk to Toa Payoh mrt station.It wasnt dat really sunny neither its rainy day.It was just a normal day when all of the human beings went to work&school.But the bad thing was, i wasnt feeling dat fine.Having a nose block&rally bad flu.Can't even taste anything. :(
And my body achee to the core.But i just ignored cause i really eager to go to school.And there's something happen that really makes me feel down.I lost my ez-link.Didnt realise i put it at my lap.Urghh! Mummy nags,ALOT.Scolded her by the back,im SORRY.Maybe i didnt control my anger.Syaitan,all over you noe.Sorry mama.
I love you.But i know,she still love me.

Did my ez-link when my lunch break :D
I need the ez-link.To travel here&there.Met sayang at school.Cause i just want him by my side.He came&he did comfort me.yeah.cnt say much.His nice.At this moment.Hopefully he wont be the same as my ex's.And i hope i can just be a good girl.I just don't want to repeat my mistakes again&again..

Ya Allah.I hope his the guy whom can be by my side, taking good care of me,making sure that im safe,guiding me to a straight path which can bring me happiness&joy.And i just hope,i could pass my studies in a flying colours.AMIN, Syukur :)

new thing for me :)

2010-01-24T03:05:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,life have been tough for me.Going through different kind of problems.
Love, studies, work.urghh!its hard.but i'll just try not to think too much.I just dont want to get depression or stress up with small stuff.This year, im gonna be 18 yrs old.I dont want to make any silly mistakes anymore.Hopefully, everything will be fine.Studies? its been great in school.Paying more attention to it.Going to school oftenly.Till my class advisor said, ive improved alot. :)
Obviously i gave a wide smiled.But i noe, this is just a begining for me.Still got long way to go.

Love?
I dont believe guys dat much.But i noe, all the guys are totally different.Different than i thought.Alfian? Broke up with him cause there's no connection in that relationship.I guess, maybe im not meant for him.Although his a good looking&nice guy but maybe we are meant to be friends. Only! &Adi,he is just using me. :)
ouhh, i almost forget.There's this guy.His name is Rezal.His such a nice one.He knows how to take good care of me.Which im nt dat sure if its for awhile or lasting long? No hoping for this one.But i guess, i need to give him a chance.I just dont want him to get hurt by waiting. Neither do i wanna get hurt.I just hope he will meant wht he said.Its not easy.But if he can smoothen my heart.That will be good.

im done.i got to go&have some rest.work was a piece of shit.Swensens? Manager?
urghh..
good nite..