Diary, im so pissed off ryte now! Really damn pissed off. Wrote something just now about how i felt and think, ended up i click the other website&the previous was gone. FUCK!
so, back to where i stop. Maybe, i should restart back what ive said. I really dont noe why this mixing feelings is still stuck in my heart. Scared&sad! Is really carried away. I cant stop thinking negatively.. Didnt talk to hun cause i felt like scolding him or maybe nag at him. I dont noe. Maybe my mens is coming or maybe this feelings is going to be worse!
Besides this feelings,talking about how i get into this mixing feelings.. I just wonder. Why on earth there's alot of bitches hanging here& there waiting or maybe flirting with guys? Why on earth there is a bitch? Okay fine! i cant say this but why cant they be just themself rather following animals attitude whom didnt felt shame for themself. Im not referring to whoever but this is how i felt..
&why on earth they need to looked&be so bitchy towards other people mens?
Are they born to be like that or they become like that cause they want to?
Hun still didnt talk. Maybe he wants to but i've showed to him dat i felt really pissed off. Is he really love me? Do he really care?
forget it. im off to watch a soccer match. it rains. And i hope it wont be that heavily or maybe no rain& a bit of sunny..
love.
